Friday, August 31, 2007

You either get it or...

First of all, I just want those two people out there who read my blog daily to know that if I ever get pregnant, I will start a separate blog for that topic. I realize it is only interesting to me, my mom, and my mother-in-law and even amongst that population it only holds so much fascination. I say this because I don't feel good again today which makes my mind wander to baby related issues but I have to remind myself that the fertility drugs cause me to feel sick in the second half of the cycle. I'm still trying to gather strength to face this process repeatedly if it doesn't work again this month.

I bet you've never seen a photo of a cat in a box before. It's still cute though isn't it!

I've skipped swimming all week so I don't wear down my body and ultimately cause an iron deficiency. My body needs iron right now so I've been eating red meat and even drank real prune juice last night (it was nasty!) I miss swimming so much, it really hurts my general feeling of wellness to not do my regular exercise schedule.

One of my active friends is pregnant and getting pretty far along. Someone said to her, "You might as well forget that bike riding because you're not going to have time for that anymore!" Oddly, on that very same day I was thinking about how fun it will be for me to babysit for her while she goes out riding with her husband.

People who don't exercise regularly think it's a burden and a mis-prioritization or waste of time. Sometimes it's the only escape or quiet time people who exercise have and it really rejuvenates the soul. It's like telling someone who loves music to stop listening, which is totally ridiculous. It takes the life out of people, it's a passion. Now if that person listens to music obsessively and goes on marathon trips to seek out music then that's a more delicate topic (i.e. Ironman) My personal feelings on it are that once I'm done having a baby I will still need time to myself and a good run will work wonderfully. The faster the better, I intend to comeback and comeback fast. But first, there's the waiting.

Have a great holiday weekend! We will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary so look for some corny love post this weekend.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Panties, yes I said panties!

We got a small shipment of panties in this week and they are currently off at embroidery and I can't wait to get them back! I purchased these from American Apparel so they are made in America and are sweatshop free. I have several colors on my web site and you can order them now. The fabric is a cotton spandex jersey blend and they are made to be low rise but still provide coverage. A friend suggested "Running: Better Than Therapy" to print on the back. Let me know if you have any more great ideas! You'll get one free if I use the idea.

Check out our dining room, doesn't it look lovely? We're working on deciding a color for this room, I think Bill is painting "Meditative" today, it's the blue in the lower right. He already started painting the other wall "Practical Beige" which leads into the living room. We'll put up a pic as soon as he's done.

Dog update: Marshall is fine! He must have been allergic to the new food we bought, it was some lamb type from Costco.

Fertility update: I got my blood drawn today to test for progesterone. She couldn't get any blood out of me so she had to try twice. I almost passed out, I think my blood pressure is low again. I don't feel good today so that doesn't help with my wandering mind. We won't know anything for another week. I am really looking forward to the long weekend and our 1 year anniversary.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Fun with Photoshop

I've been playing with some of my favorite photos using Adobe Photoshop software and might end up covering every wall in our house with tricked out pictures of the Funny Farm. That wouldn't be strange or anything. Do we need kids or what?!

Another fun project I'm working on: PANTIES! I'VE GOT PANTIES!!! Seriously, I ordered up a batch of colorful and fun panties from American Apparel and I'm going to add them to my web store this week. I need to think of some fun sayings to put on them. Then we have to decide whether to put the sayings on the front or the back. A funny one I just thought of for Slowtwitch insiders "HTFU" That is a must! Send me your ideas now!



Puppy Marshall


Bree Taking Care of Business

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Project #1 Bathroom

These photos aren't great, there is no natural light in this bathroom but we did the best poor man's remodeling job we could. Bill painted and I made a piece of "art" to hang up which is actually a photo of a shadow of a plant that I took while we were in Phoenix. I ran the photo through Adobe Photoshop with some special effects and printed it on our color printer and framed in a fancy $10 frame from Target. Bamo! Project #1 done.

We're painting the interior of our house and doing little things throughout in case we have to sell but also in case we stay. I can't tolerate builder beige for another minute! Bill is doing all of the painting and I've been running to the paint store for samples daily. We're a good team. I like how that works out for me.

Last night we had another rough night with the dog. We let him sleep on the bed since he was moping around in the evening and about 3am he woke us up with some raucous puking. Then he puked again a bit later so Bill and Marshall went downstairs and I managed to get some sleep after that but this hasn't been the best week for sleep. Marshall is fine today by the way. We switched his food, I think he was allergic to something in the new food we bought him.

Monday, August 27, 2007

Moody

There's no way around it, I am moody. The weekend was fine, we're fine, I'm fine, I'm just moody. I don't have that "feel good" vibe I normally have and I haven't figured out how to get around it yet. We did some yoga tonight, maybe that will help, I'm going to keep it up. Our swim class winds down this week until school starts which is probably good, I can't help but go hard on occasion and I don't know how good that is for fertility at this point. It's pathetic but I almost want summer to end so I can stop thinking about all the great workouts I'm missing.

We had a yard sale Saturday and it was a bust but we went through the garage clutter so that was positive. Sunday we started painting the interior of the house, I'll post pics tomorrow. Marshall broke out in hives on Sunday, it started before we started painting so I don't think it was that. He had them first thing in the morning, then they went away and came back after he ate dinner so no more of that food. We thought he ate a bee and had a reaction, perhaps he did. I was up with Marshall at 3 am after another fitful night of sleeping. Bill got up with us this time and put a poker tournament on TV which put me back to sleep sometime around 4am.

We purchased several paint samples and are trying to decide on colors for various rooms. So I'm obsessing on that and trying not to think about how I will do another month of fertility treatments. Going to have to dig myself out of this bad mood somehow but I haven't figured it out yet.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Focusing on the good things

Photo of Erin's new house in eastern Washington, she is thinking of turning it into a Bed and Breakfast in the future. She's in the heart of wine country in a lovely little town and the house itself is very charming. I am really excited to see what she does with the place.

Yesterday was a good day yeah! We have a new niece in Texas (yet to be named) and a healthy mom and happy family so that's great news!

I took the day off from work yesterday so we could get the IUI procedure done so hurray the fertility drugs worked this month and it appears that I ovulated this time. Just to clarify, because I know this is confusing, I do not ovulate regularly, for whatever reason, we do not know, but I am anovulatory which for me is basically a nightmare. I had surgery on one of my ovaries when I was 21 and ever since then I have been terrified that I wouldn't be able to get pregnant.

Fortunately there is a drug called Clomid that helps women ovulate but there are some unpleasant side effects to it. I don't sleep well, I'm hot, my ovaries hurt, and I have frequent mood swings that make me feel seriously irritated. I'm not exaggerating or kidding, I am irritated. This is my 3rd month on Clomid, on month one I ovulated but did not get pregnant but on month two I did not ovulate so they doubled the dosage of the drug. The increased estrogen makes a more hostile environment for sperm so the Dr. recommended intra-uterine insemination (IUI) which means they take Bill's sperm, clean it and get the best swimmers and inject them into my uterus around the time of ovulation. IUI success rates are around 20% which is the same as a normally fertile couple.

Wednesday night I was up at 1am eating cereal and watching the X-files on TV wondering how I will deal with this if it doesn't work. Everyone around me is trying to be positive and hopeful but my strength has worn down about this situation and I think more frequently about what we will do if I can't get pregnant than I do about getting pregnant. Things are not easy for us right now, Bill is looking for a job and there is the possibility that we will have to move. I have a hard time dealing the the fact that my life could totally change in the next 6 months OR it could remain exactly the same. Fortunately Marshall dog was up late with me while I thought about all of this (Bill was upstairs snoring which trust me, he needs the sleep since he has to deal with me) and Marshall and I eventually fell asleep together on the couch watching Animal Planet. He's such a good dog but a total space hog.

We are having a yard sale this weekend and starting to paint the interior of our house. I am excited about getting rid of junk and sprucing up the house. Have a great weekend!

Thursday, August 23, 2007

West Plains Wunderwoman Triathlon

This past Sunday we arrived at Medical Lake in Washington state around 7am approximately two hours before the race start. It was drizzling and cold which is a shock to everyone who knows eastern Washington weather in August, it's typically hot. Even though we arrived early, there were many racers there setting up in transition and getting ready for the race. I will never beat the triathletes to a race start! Even when I race I'm typically late, I should probably take a clue from these organized people.

Anyway, the race was well set up, the transition area clearly marked with gates to show racers which way to go. Ende Sports does a great job with these events, I am so happy that they are adding to the race scene in the NW. I don't have any photos of the day but there were plenty of extras there for the racers including a fire truck rigged to make pizzas (David's Pizza I think) with signs that said "pizza emergency" and even better, free osteoporosis screening for the ladies. We had a great time chatting with the racers and even though the weather sucked, people seemed happy with the event. I hope to be back next year, these all ladies events are a blast!

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Mary's Peak Time Trial

I don't have Bill here to give me the particulars so I might need to update this later but the Mary's Peak Time Trial was not a PR for him, not even close, but was more of a test of how in shape he could get in two weeks by riding the Peak every other day. This is his favorite climb so when this time trial came up I pushed him to sign up even though he is not in riding shape and is 10 pounds overweight (his words not mine!) I think his PR on the 9 mile climb is somewhere around 47 minutes but he had been riding it around 55 minutes recently. On race day he rode 51:18 which put him 38 out of 69 riders. In shape he would have been closer to the top 20.

Mary's Peak is the highest point in the Cascade mountain range and the base of the peak is a a around 18 miles outside of Corvallis. We are very privileged to have this climb nearby, it is also lovely for hiking, on a clear day you can see to the coast to the west and Mt Hood to the east. Marshall and I went up to cheer and hike and had a lovely time watching everyone SUFFER up the hill. Some of the guys hamming it up after their assault on the Peak:

Friday, August 17, 2007

Inventoried Myself

Sorry for the lack of blog entries! We've been preparing inventory for the Wunderwoman triathlon this Sunday and it has been a load of work. I have a bunch of new items that had to be inventoried and prepared and after two 12 hour days of work I am DONE! Tomorrow morning Bill rides the Mary's Peak Time Trial then we're off to Spokane. Bill is hoping to break 50 minutes for the 9 mile climb. Here's to strong riding and great sales (chin chin) have a great weekend!

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Crazy swim workouts

In swim class today the main set included 100 free all out, push off the wall and kick with hands in the air until 2:15 and repeat five times. Craziness. In the middle of the workout while kicking, I said to the older gentleman next to me, "This is going to tone our buns!" and he said "I don't know about that but I think it might give me a heart attack." OMG!

We've had a rough summer in swim class, our substitute instructor is just as crazy as our regular guy only this new guy likes free as much as the old guy likes IM. The worst main set we've done this year:

All free
500 (check time at 400) rest :10
400 (beat 400 time above and check 300 time) rest :10
300 (beat 300 time above and check 200 time) rest :10
200 (beat 200 time above and check 100 time) rest :10
100 (beat 100 time above and check 50 time) rest :10
50 (beat 50 time above)

That was a very tough day. First there is the math factor that is probably more challenging for me to keep track of than the actual swimming. I needed a spreadsheet to figure out what I was supposed to be doing.

The OSU triclub is getting gearing up to put on the Beaver Fever Duathlon on Oct. 18th. It's a challenging race but worth the effort. This should be the last event of 2007 where I am a vendor. I might miss it a little but I think the time off will be good for me too.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Why?

We hosted a BBQ for our "South Town Homies" last night after work and I made 6 rounds of daiquiris for everyone. I have regrets about that today. We had a good time, the weather here is perfect (80s) and we were able to sit out on the back deck while Bill manned the grill. We get together with this group every month for dinner at someone's house as a way to stay in touch with each other since everyone gets so busy, especially in the summer. By the end of the night Bill fired up the DVR and we got "Ninja Warrior" going and all of the guys were ready to try out for the show.

I've got to get it together today, we are getting ready for another chaotic weekend. Saturday morning Bill is doing the Mary's Peak time trial and afterwards we are driving 6 hours to my parent's house in Spokane. Sunday morning we will be at the Wunderwoman triathlon for another great all women's event and then we're planning to drive back home afterward so 12 hours of driving in 24 hours. The plan is to stop off at QRGirl's new house, she bought a historic home in eastern Washington and is planning for it to be a bed and breakfast in the future. Maybe we'll be her first customers, this weekend is going to be tough!

Monday, August 13, 2007

Cultus Lake, Oregon

(See if you can find Marshall in these pics). We managed to get out of town on Saturday morning by around 11am, no easy feat for us but we did it. Typically I pack food and Bill packs sporting goods and camping gear. The animals fend for themselves. Meow! Since I packed the food, Bill was obligated to complain once we got there that there wasn't enough food and we were going to starve. I proceeded to make him the two largest burritos he'd ever seen and then watched him suffer through eating both of them. He passed out shortly afterward so I guess you could say I put an end to that complaining. The joy of marriage!

I thought we would get there Saturday and hang out by the lake and then mtn bike on Sunday but Bill was all amped to go ride right after we got there so we set out on a ride around 3:30pm. The first part of the ride was on paved and dirt roads but once we got to Little Cultus Lake we hit nice single track and Marshall dog was in doggy heaven. That dog loves trails and trails around lakes are 5 stars to him. He likes to run in between us so he gets on the wheel of whoever is leading and trots along, happy as can be, looking for water spots and sniffing for wild game. This was his longest run ever, he went about 13 miles and if you add in all the swimming he did, that dog had an epic day.

Fortunately, or miraculously, I didn't crash on this ride but it was a relatively easy one so that isn't saying much about my skills. There were about 10 log crossings and I bailed on all of them, I just wanted to enjoy the ride and not be stressed so I got off and pushed my bike whenever I felt like it. I felt pretty girly about doing that but I'm not trying to prove anything right now, just enjoy the day. Besides any woman that gets on a mountain bike and rides over roots and rocks and gets all dirty and risks crashing is a plucky chick so I give myself credit for researching this ride and then doing it, even if it was beginner mtn biking. The two plus hours I spent on the saddle were more than I've ridden all year and I enjoyed it. I'll do the log and water crossings next time and I'm sure I'll have the scars to prove it.

Marshall slept well on the trip home. I think we'll come back here when I'm ready to ride seriously again, this is a good warm-up trail (12 miles) and you can add on a climb up Mt. Cultus to make it more difficult. We were surprised that Cultus Lake is a party lake, speed boats and jet skies and families running wild. I guess different lakes draw different crowds, I can't say I would recommend this one but it was fine for one night (with ear plugs). Sunday we had breakfast at the Cultus Lake resort (can't beat backwoods restaurants for breakfast) and then stopped off at a few more lakes before driving home. This area is so beautiful, we absolutely love it here. Here are some pics from our 24 hour trip:

Friday, August 10, 2007

Cheers!

Is this a great photo or what!?! I made strawberry daiquiris last night and they were so yummy I thought I would get a photo of one for my blog and as I pointed the camera Marshall walks up and licks the glass. What a turd! After I made strawberry daiquiris I made pina coladas and then we mixed the two together. I slept well last night. Bill kept saying "I'm not getting drunk off these" but his speech was slightly slurring so I just poured him another one.

Tomorrow we're driving east near Bend, Oregon to Cultus Lake to go camping and ride our mountain bikes around the lake. The trail around is about 12 miles and it's described as moderately hard but I'm so out of shape I'm sure it will feel quite difficult. I finally made it to swim class this week and hammered the main set. I haven't done that in months. I'm so tired now, my entire upper body is throbbing. After the swim I realized that it's a lot more difficult to be pissed off at the world when your physically exhausted.

Here's a recipe (modified) to make these fresh strawberry daiquiris:
  • 6 cups ice
  • 1/2 cup white sugar
  • 4 ounces frozen strawberries (we used fresh not frozen)
  • 1/8 cup lime juice
  • 1/2 cup lemon juice
  • 3/4 cup rum
  • 1/4 cup lemon-lime flavored carbonated beverage (we left this out and used more lemon juice)
Cheers! I'm ready for another!

Thursday, August 09, 2007

The Party is Over

I went to the Dr. today and afterwards I called Bill and told him the party is over. The Dr. is recommending IUI, an insemination procedure and an increase in dosage of the fertility drug Clomid. Why? Because my cycles continue to be irregular and we need to up the Clomid to see if I will ovulate regularly. Upping the Clomid causes a more hostile environment for sperm so they want Bill to provide a sample and then they will get out the turkey baster. Fun times for both of us! The chances of conceiving through this method will be around 20% each cycle. The cost for this is around $300/mo. and our insurance will cover about half not including the medication.

I met Bill at noon today for some aqua jogging and we talked it through and we're going to try this method for a few cycles. If it doesn't work then we'll go to a fertility specialist and see what they have to say. We will try a few more things but we will not try the costly and emotionally draining in-vitro procedures. There has to be an end point for me.

Bill is supportive and agrees that we cannot continue to stress my body with drugs endlessly. If there were no reason to suspect something was abnormal then we might be more patient, but each month I never know what the circumstances will be. If these initial fertility treatments don't work, we will look into adoption while we continue trying naturally. I am called to motherhood, it's a strong instinct and I just don't know that my life will be complete without a family to care for. I haven't met a kid yet that wasn't intrigued by Bill, they are drawn to his good nature, confidence, and his sense of humor. We both want kids and it is terribly sad for anyone to be in this situation. I wouldn't wish infertility on my worst enemy, it hurts.

On top of that, I turn 35 next month, the age that everything officially goes downhill with fertility. I would guess that the next month or two is not going to be pleasant for us.

Regardless of what happens, Bill and I are happy together. We've had some tough spots to get through and some unexpected grenades thrown at us and what is great about life and why I am so fortunate is that we will find a way to enjoy life together. We don't have to have everything perfectly aligned to be happy, we really do enjoy what we have. Having these circumstances come up makes me appreciate and love Bill even more than I did the day we married.

Tonight I am making us some strawberry daiquiris, we'll put our feet up and watch the animals romp around the back yard. We'll make plans for mountain biking this weekend and camping out at a lake and when we get back, bring on the turkey baster and the drugs. Cheers friends. Thanks for reading.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Funky

Look how big Cassie is getting, she's practically a moose. Isn't it fun to streeeetcch her out for a good measure. I need a laugh today. Tonight we went to a graduation pizza party for a friend who finished his PhD program and is moving on to bigger and better things. This is the problem with living in a college town, you met great people and they are gone in a few years. As you get older this gets tougher. Sometimes a crop of great new people come into town in September or sometimes it takes a few years. When I first moved here I made girlfriends with a bunch of undergrads and grad students. We used to get together for "tribabe" night and watch TV or movies. Basically all of those girls are gone now except one or two. That was 5 years ago so the turnover rate is high.

Today kind of sucked in general although my stomach felt better today so I thought I would make it back to swim class but at 10 minutes before noon (just before I leave for class) a co-worker came in wanting help installing some software. Instead of swimming I got to watch a screen say "File 109 or 692 updating..." good times.

I'm working on an inventory system for tribabe.com and that also makes me cranky. You can do something with pencil and paper that takes 15 minutes or you can spend 8 hours building a database and reports to do the same thing. Guess which route I took! My blood sugar was low earlier and I think Bill thought I was going to bite his head off and eat it for a snack. Just kidding.

Here's a new t-shirt we're working on, they say "My Mom is Faster Than Your Mom" with a picture of a bike with a lightening bolt. You can replace Mom with Dad, Grandma, Auntie etc. I can't wait to sell these in a few weeks at the Wunderwoman triathlon near Spokane.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Messing with Me

Well I'm kind of sick, an upset stomach kind of thing and no, I'm not pregnant. I know because I took a test Monday morning and it was the most negative test I've ever seen in my life. If the test could talk it would have yelled "NOT pregnant!"

Anyway I don't have much to talk about since I'm on the down low, the only thing going on in my world is the animals are messing with me. The little cat will play with anything on my bedside table, knocking things around in morning and taking my elastic hair bands downstairs and putting them in the dog's water dish. Bill has tons of great stuff to play with on his side of the bed like ear plugs and lip balm but everything over there remains untouched. Just my stuff gets messed with.

Last night the little cat was passed out on the dog's bed in front of the fireplace and we started our nightly ritual of letting the dog out for one last bathroom break before bed. Just as I opened the back door to let the dog out the little cat went flying through the door and into the night. Then the dog does his thing which includes walking half way out on the deck, checking to see if we're watching him and then standing there waiting to be told once again to go to the bathroom. If you don't tell him to go, he'll just come back to the door. He likes to be told twice.

Eventually we got everyone in the house and in bed but I couldn't sleep last night. I tossed and turned until 2am and then Bill gave me some cough syrup with codeine and I slept for about 3 hours before waking up and tossing and turning again. Bill slept in the other room so the dog slept with me and after the alarm went off a few times the cat jumped on the bed with us and decided to starting "nursing" the dog. He will let her pretend nurse and kneed him a few times before giving her the heave-ho. I said, "How humiliating Marshall" and we got out of bed.

The trip downstairs first thing in the morning is always a stampede to the food dishes. Marshall stomped on the baby cat (on purpose I'm sure) and she let out a cry so I yelled at him and told him to go outside. As I fed the kitties the dog sat at the door, looking so sad and sorry that I let him back in and fed him. He drools if you make him wait too long.

My one true enjoyment out of this is I'm usually first out of bed so I can always send the dog back to wake up Bill. The dog likes to step all over him and lick his face and lay on him. That makes it all worth it. I hope I can sleep tonight. As soon as I feel better I'm treating myself to a mango margarita. Cheers.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

No Details Here

I woke up this morning with a slight fever and an upset stomach (no details you are welcome) so I didn't get a whole lot done today. I tried to start the day out slow, watching TV, drinking coffee, and eating toast with Nutella but I couldn't enjoy any of it so of course that made me cranky. CRANKY! I must have picked something up yesterday. Nothing irritates me more than not being able to drink coffee or eat chocolate.

Bill had another Mary's Peak climb to do so we made a plan that I would drop my tribabe.com stuff off for embroidery and then drive up to the Peak and then we would do a hike with the dog and then drive back down. In my slightly ill state it took me too long to get my orders ready and then I left without grabbing Bill's hiking gear. Jeez! Long story short: I hiked solo and Bill rode back down and visited with the Grizwalds (our friends who helped us with the wedding last year) and I picked him up there.

After that fiasco I enjoyed and nice long nap and now here I am. Still cranky. We do have some good news that Bill is allowing me to share: he has been cleared on the fertility stuff. I can't give you any details or share any stories about it, he would be very hostile toward me if I even tried. So I have nothing further to say about that topic. Except he is fine. And that's all I'm allowed to say. I better go before I get in trouble! p.s. see the bee in the flower? I took great risks to get that photo! Those flowers were growing all over the side of the road on the Peak and I bet the first time Bill will see these flowers is on my blog even though he spent 9 miles riding his bike up the hill next to them. I guess he won't get any faster if he stops to look at flowers. He'll check in a day and a half he says since he'll be back there then.

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Do not go see this movie

Well folks I held my husband's attention for a little while, but then he remembered what it was like to spend his Saturday morning riding bikes with his buddies and bam! I was flying solo again. It's my fault though, we heard about a time trial ride up Mary's Peak and I encouraged him to do it since that is his favorite climb and it will be a fund raiser for a guy who crashed pretty badly and needs some financial assistance. Then one of my girlfriends told Bill he should ride the Peak every other day until the time trial in a few weeks and ding ding ding! The bells went off in his head so I spent the better part of the morning home alone cleaning house.

But! I got more done this morning than I have in a month so I shouldn't complain. After he got back we went down the the Farmer's Market and saw a dog that looked just like Marshall. We asked the lady where they got the dog and when and it is very possible that Marshall met his brother this morning. I gave the lady my email since she was dog sitting, I hope they contact me and that Bubba can have a play date sometime.

After lunch I passed out on the couch (fertility drug induced napping is now my thing) and when I woke up I had the genius idea to go see "I Now Pronounce You Larry and Chuck" with Adam Sandler and Kevin James. Ladies, do not take your husbands to see this. The leading lady is gorgeous and spends way too much screen time in her underwear and I guarantee you will leave feeling miserable after watching her bounce around for two hours. Miserable. Spare yourself from it. Trust me.

Friday, August 03, 2007

Boring!

We don't have any plans this weekend. We did too much last weekend so my goals this weekend are: go to the farmer's market and stock up on fruit to make a pie or berry crumble, take the dog on a hike, and do yard work. If it's nice and I don't feel like a bloated pinata then perhaps I'll go on a bike ride. That's the plan, now let's see what actually happens.

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Costco and cows


I don't know what is more of a Costco favorite for me: a box of Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches or a tub of Sabra hummus. This hummus is the best I've ever had, a perfect amount of garlic and whipped to a creamy (non-lumpy) texture. My breath constantly reeks of garlic from eating this stuff, Bill just loves it. But Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches are really too good to be true. They are DELICIOUS and they only have 140 calories and 15 g of sugar. Yummmm. I guess if you haven't ever tried them don't because you will shortly become an addict like me.

My other cow thing is Laughing Cow light swiss cheese, one wedge has 35 calories 0 trans fat and is great on vegetables for a quick snack. It's too hard for me to eat raw veggies without something on them and this cheese is a good choice. I just picked up my first bag of Bear Naked Organic Trail Mix and it is by far the best dang trail mix I've ever had, incredibly fresh and the perfect amount of chocolate. I might actually enjoy eating in the back country if I took this, although having it at my desk right now is working fine too.

I'm off of the anti-sugar kick but I am still trying to limit sugar in an effort to keep my blood sugar steady. I do get "sugared out" when I indulge now so I think I'll try to maintain this level and stay away from pop, juice, and cookies as much as I can.

With all this eating talk I have to confess that I am starting to get paranoid because lately people have been randomly saying, "You look good!" like, out of the blue saying this to me. Now I've gained 10 pounds since last year and my hair has grown out quite a bit so are they saying I look good because I looked like crap last year or are they saying I look good because I look chubby and they are concerned that I could be mental about it? I ran into an athletic friend a few days ago who recently had a child and she said, "I know you can't ever been skinny enough as an athlete but you look good!" So I think I believe her but maybe she's just being nice, she always seems very nice. One of my tri buddies comments on my weight every time I see him and makes jokes about me having child bearing hips now. That makes me want to go dip some Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches in a bucket of hummus and take up residence on the couch.

Or I could quit the fertility drugs and spend the rest of the summer mountain biking and trail running and not tell anyone...

I'm sure there's some show on TV I could watch to make my time on the couch easier. I hope Ninja Warrior is on. Or Fight Girls! I just started watching it. Love it! Chicks who kick and punch! Sweet! Where's the ice cream!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Willamette River at dusk

Our trip on the Willamette River from Corvallis to Albany in pictures. We started at 7pm and ended at 9:30pm which wasn't a moment too soon. The full moon did help with light but the bugs were out once the sun went down so it was time to get out. We saw several blue herons, a few jumping fish and some nutria who seemed to be practicing their cannon balls, they kept making loud splashing noises around us. Kind of creepy.